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Cell phone pic [23 Oct 2007|06:18pm]
[ mood | good ]

Me at work today.

That is all. :)

[10 Oct 2007|10:58am]
[ mood | hungry ]

Quick update! Lot's of pictures!

How is everyone?? =)

(The first two sets are on myspace)

Picture set #1 Club Skandal

Picture set #2 Release The Bats

And my very first attempt at bruises and blood, what do you think?...

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[18 Sep 2007|09:19pm]
[ mood | good ]

I think this one would have to be my favorite! :-)

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[17 Sep 2007|05:42pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Wait, what am I doing?

Some more photos from Jen! [13 Sep 2007|07:22pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Here are some more photos from that same shoot that I posted about last time...I love the way they all came out so raw!

EDIT: Just added one more!

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JUST POKING MY HEAD IN! [10 Sep 2007|05:31pm]
[ mood | tired ]

AAAH! I feel bad! I have pretty much neglected Livejournal since I got on myspace...except I read through my friends page still about every other day. I love you all, and keep in touch now with most of you on myspace, but other than that, for those of you who don't have one, or don't have me added, how are you!?

Not a whole lot has changed since my last entry about a week and a half ago...I'm doing good, and just recently did a fun little photoshoot with my friend Jen who was the photographer. I shall post 3 as a preview, the rest are still being worked on by her, and when I get them I will post them here...hope ya like =D

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[05 Aug 2007|11:13pm]
[ mood | in pain ]

The extent of my injuries from my accident...

I guess I'm pretty lucky..
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What a wonderful world [05 Aug 2007|03:21pm]
[ mood | distressed ]

So I just got home from a very long morning....thinking I was on my way to meet my friend Shauna at the beach.

I decided to stop for a slurpee at the 7-11 next to my house and while waiting to turn left at the intersection the light turned yellow...then about to turn red...many cars across the intersection were far back and coming to a slow. I began to turn as it turned red, and another car decided last minute to speed up and try and beat the light...instead colliding into the passenger side of my car, spinning me around and throwing me back across the intersection a good 20 feet and into the curb, totaling it. Not my judgment, the shops...they said my car is gone. My air bag deployed and punched me harder than I've ever been hit before. For a good one minute I refused to look down at my body for fear that I was covered in blood, or possibly, living my last moments of life, I am such an over-reactor. The pain and fear I felt at that exact moment was indescribable, but only heightened by my anxiety. My injuries are not even a 4th of what I feared. I have large skin abrasions all across my chest and my entire left arm, it has black and blue marks, and my foot is cut open and possibly sprained, but I believe it is only bruised. I feel like a car parked across my chest and it hurts to sit still. The paramedics came and offered to hospitalize me but when I asked if it was necessary, they told me that I would be okay, just be in a lot of pain. It is funny how a simple last minute decision can change your life, but luckily this has just awakened me, I am lucky, let alone to be alive, but that I was actually able at the moment of the accident, to get up and walk to the sidewalk by myself. Nothing broken, no concussion. I was even angry that my new book had gotten a little messed up in the back seat of my car, and that a stupid beetle tried to fly into me. Funny how we make light of the big things, and worry about the little ones. My car was just over a year old.

This must make it about accident #8 for me. I am a walking, no, Driving time bomb.

Everyone, please drive safely.

These are sidekick pictures, I am the silver Ford, both cars were however totaled.

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Party Dress [04 Aug 2007|04:41pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Ell and I attended our friend's wedding last night and so he took some photos of me ^_^

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and I always just say wtf!? [28 Jul 2007|01:32pm]
[ mood | amused ]

no matter how many billion times I've watched this, it never gets old, and only gets funnier and funnier...haha

We once had a cat that did this...it's some sort of nervous/annoyed reaction to being petted. lol
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My dearest feline friend... [26 Jul 2007|06:25pm]
[ mood | devistated ]

My best feline friend of the last 16 years of my life, Phantom, passed away today. It's a confusing emotion that runs over you when you expect something, maybe not as soon as it happens, but when it comes to you it still comes upon you so unexpectedly. I will miss you all the days of my life baby girl... =-_-=

Phantom Story

I ♥ U

R.I.P. Always

Click here to visit Phantom's very old and out of service myspace :-(
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[26 Jul 2007|06:23pm]
[ mood | amused ]

I just found this on Drunkrockers.com lolz....you know...taken about 3 weeks ago at Das Bunker. I'm pretty sure he had taco's in his mouth at that exact moment lol..

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[25 Jul 2007|06:29pm]

P.S.- "Twilight" by Stephenie Meyer is AFUCKINGMAZING, I'm just about done, started it two days ago. I've fallen in love with a fictional character..

Stephenie Meyer is an AMAZING author, and this is just the first of her 3, soon to be 4 continuing coming of age vampire romance novels about a high school girl named Bella. Also check out "New Moon" & "Eclipse".

Check out an interview with the author here
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a result of boredom [22 Jul 2007|06:58pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

I have a new photo to share today. :-)

We found a couple nice places today, and now me and Ash are house cleaning!
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[22 Jul 2007|02:12pm]
Me and my roomies Ashley & Steph are moving in a month...yes I am moving again but we're gonna be livin large this time!

I'm about to go townhouse/apartment hunting for the 2nd time this weekend, wish us luck that we'll find something totally sweet!
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[20 Jul 2007|05:40pm]
[ mood | happy ]

So I think I have been messing around a lot more lately on facebook, but I still love you lj :D FB is just new so I'm playing with it more, fascinated with it more lol.

I'm so excited! Tonight at midnight is the release of "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows"! and me and Jen will be attending a book release party at midnight til who knows when! Is anyone else super excited or going to a Harry Potter party as well?

Yaaayyy J. K. Rowling! ;)

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I WON A CONTEST!! [17 Jul 2007|02:04pm]
[ mood | amused & dissapointed ]

So I'm sitting at work right now, and about 30 minutes ago I got a call from a number I didn't recognize on my cell phone. I answered and the man on the other end of the phone asked if I was in fact Lindsay Story. I told him yes and he told me that was wonderful and did I remember filling out a contest form at the Brea Mall about a week ago, I indeed did do that, but I thought it was for a car, which I didn't happen to win. Turns out however, I won a complete roundtrip airfare for 2 people to Las Vegas + hotel fare, good for any time this year, and a $100 online shopping spree! It is time share (boo) so they told me all I have to do is watch what they have to offer this Saturday and then I can decline and collect my prize! Well of course I am a skeptic so I called my dad and had him call the company and "investigate" and he made the women feel very sympathetic for me and she fessed up that it's just a whole lot of bullshit, and I wouldn't have much time to enjoy myself there because they would have to send me to more seminars/meetings once I got there, so I don't even want to bother. Oh well, it was nice to finally win something at all in my life! I am happy for that fact alone.

My dad feels bad and wants to send me on a vacation on his behalf since this didn't work out, but it's not really necessary. Thanks though daddy!

Anyone else ever won something like this before...what a scam man! :P

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wow [16 Jul 2007|12:28pm]
[ mood | excited ]

So my dad has been busting his ass for the past 4 or so years at his job, C & C international, where he is in charge of all the international accounts. He travels to China about once a month, and has seen the likes of Germany, France, Italy, Australia & Ireland in just the past year alone.

Today his boss just gave him a $20,000 promotion, and told him he may be seeing another $20,000 dollar promotion by years end, which would put him just over $100,000/year. Our family is so excited for him right now, god did he deserve it! YAY Daddy!!

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[15 Jul 2007|07:19pm]
[ mood | forlorn ]

I'm hungry and I have no food here right now, I'm still sick, and I've grown increasingly sad today for no good reason. I want to be hugged, I want to be taken care of and I want to be really happy again. I also want pizza hut because they can deliver it and I'm lazy as fuck, but I'm not really in the mood for pizza, I'll probably order it anyway. I'm scared about a lot of things right now, and it has caused me to be bitter lately, and depressed too often, I've not normally been known to be this type of person, and I want to fix it, this is not me, I'm not who I am. I need to be saved.

You want to comment on how cute my new wallet it, I bought it in Little Tokyo yesterday.

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[14 Jul 2007|12:16pm]

Which of you have a Facebook?

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another [13 Jul 2007|04:06pm]
[ mood | interested ]

I just bought this! I have a mountain of books at home that I still haven't read yet, but I can't wait to get started on this one, it seems so intense! Check out the review...

"What is the What" by Dave Eggers - 1st edition Hardcover 2006

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[13 Jul 2007|02:26pm]
[ mood | at work ]



[12 Jul 2007|11:31pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

So much to do so little time!

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[11 Jul 2007|09:21pm]
[ mood | sick ]

make my sicky bugs go bye bye -_-

I wish I could have the time to read a book a day, that to me, would be FULFILLING!
I wish I had my own library of books that I wouldn't let anyone borrow! Oh wait, I do.

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Ode to no one... [10 Jul 2007|11:18pm]
[ mood | unsure really ]

I can remake and remake myself a thousand times on the outside, and I probably have, but deep down inside, I'm still the same little girl I was 10 years ago, just older, and a little wiser. I wonder to myself, why have I given my love to a few deserving people in my life, my soul, my everything, opened myself up being broken, beaten, brand new, whatever condition I was in when they found me, I trusted in them to take a part of me, no, take all of me, hoping they would never let it go, each and every time. Yet tonight, I sit here like many other nights in my life, and I am alone, again. I wonder when someone is going to come along and see me for more than just a girl who does nice things for them, I want them to see through me, right through my skin and bones, and see that the very essential nature in which I exist, in which I breath and sweat is all for them, and I want to see through them, into their soul, and see that even the moments between every beat of their heart, is all for me. I want to exist for someone, and I have, but more so than anything I have ever wanted, I want to be existed for. Nothing less than that, and nothing more.

It is my deepest and most omnipotent desire, and I am afraid it will always burn inside of me. Someone put the fire out, I'm getting so tired of speaking in clichés and metaphors.

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[09 Jul 2007|08:02pm]
[ mood | yucky ]

oh nos...I'm getting sick, bedtime.

I am sad. :-(

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Hooray, I had fun [08 Jul 2007|10:17pm]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

So I've decided to compile a huge picture post from this past week, 4th of July wednesday and my weekend of 7.7.7

- 4th of July I went to a party with some friends at a warehouse, which also happened to be someone's house, which was bad ass beyond belief, and where most of the people who joined us there spun fire poi, and blew fire. I took some shots of that which came out pretty cool.

- Friday I hit Das Bunker in LA with my friend Wendy and a few others and an unexpected guest showed up that night and surprised me, Ell, we all had a hell of a great night, and then I had another adventure early into the morning afterwards. Hah.

- Saturday I met up with a good friend whom I have not hung out with in more than 4 years, John. Fun night, great catching up with. We went to the bookstore, and just sat around and talked at his place for awhile, and had an interesting conversation with his father too.

- Sunday I slept as much as possible and then met up with one of my best friends on earth, Derek, and his girlfriend Amanda, we met for lunch and then on a whim decided to hit Venice Beach for the rest of the evening. Odd people there as usual, and some guy running around yelling about licking everyone's clit. Good times this weekend, one of the best I've had in ages all around.

I'm home now and exhausted beyond belief, thinking about how much I don't feel like going to work tomorrow, with the slight tingle of a sore throat coming on.

Hope you all had a fun 7.7.7 weekend too!

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[04 Jul 2007|06:16pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

So I'm hitting a little 4th of July party in LA in a few minutes but I wanted to share some photos, one of myself that I just took, and a few of my new baby! Her name is October, and I adopted her yesterday from the Cats In Need foundation. She is about 3 months old, and sweet and cuddly as can be!

And little October =^_^=

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Everyone have a very safe night!
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is it really that strange? [02 Jul 2007|08:17am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

I slept really good last night and woke up in a rather fine mood. On my way to work I stopped in at the store, and the man who works there, a complete stranger, asked me how I was, I said that I was alright, he said "long weekend?", and I said "yes, very", and he looks at me and he says to me, "hey, it's his loss.." And I said " how did you know that sir?" and he told me, "I can see it in your eyes."

That was a strange moment.

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the sweetness [01 Jul 2007|11:21pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

Felt like recording before I go to bed tonight, that I just got home from a great day, a great weekend actually...seems I've had some brief moments of clarity in my life today, and have been able to smile in a different way today, sing to a different tune, if you will.

P.s.- I think I may have done something naughty tonight too but we'll find out, and no, it's not what you guys are thinking lol.


[29 Jun 2007|06:15pm]

I know she loves you and I can't interfere
So I'll just have to sit back and watch my world disappear
I'll find a way
She could never love you like I do

If only she knew

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[29 Jun 2007|05:26pm]
[ mood | numb ]

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I've been hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last two years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one that I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I'd still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light

But it's not right

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one that I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake

...You were my shooting star

[28 Jun 2007|09:56pm]
[ mood | blank ]

Well I guess this is growing up.

[27 Jun 2007|06:47pm]
[ mood | tired ]

I think I may go to bed already, work was really exhausting today for some reason, and I'm even to tired to eat dinner. I did pretty much everything hands on, and tomorrow is my first day pretty much on my own. Our company had a luncheon today, we went out to a Korean BBQ resturaunt nearby, and of 17 Korean people, I was the only white person, and also the only person to be served plain white rice, while everyone else had beans in theirs. We thought this was funny as hell, and someone mentioned that my rice was race specific, lol but I think it could have been unusually accidental.

You know...ok well first of all please don't go all overboard here, thinking I am fishing for compliments, and trying to cheer me up, because I am OKAY. But thinking back when I was younger, in my teens still, I felt a lot more physically attractive, and I spent a lot more time getting ready every day. I've become so low maintenance in my old(er) age that I almost feel I've become too plain. I remember when I had guys practically hanging off of me, well wanting to date me, even when I wasn't single, and I used to get whistled at everywhere I went (could have been cause I was a freak back then haha), but it doesn't happen much anymore. I don't mind so much, but I just don't feel as pretty as I used to, it's no big deal though, I know I'm not unattractive...we all get old. I think I have become a much more attractive person on the inside, however. Today when I went to 7-11 before work, I seemed to have caught the eye of the gentleman who worked there, a middle aged balding white man & his friend or a customer. They seemed enamoured with me, and kept telling me I was a beautiful creature with gorgeous big blue eyes, beautiful hair and face. They made me blush more than usual, and I realized it was not so much because they were older men, but just because that hasn't happened in a while, or I haven't noticed it, and it felt good, and rather foreign to me. Anyhow, I figured that I'd post a plain photograph, to go with my plain words, that match the plain girl behind them. Tata!

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!!! [26 Jun 2007|10:56pm]
[ mood | freaking hyper ]

Oh man I don't know what's up with me today but I've been so hyper ever since I got home from work...I can't shut up, I'm even talking the freakin cat's head off tonight and he's like wtf shitbag and just looks at me and bites my ankles.

I miss my origami, I'm going to start again and bring all my stars to work, Koreans totally love that shit, they'll be like "YES!!!"...

Dude, ya I'm gonna start right now!!!

OH I just realized one more sweet thing, every morning now I wake up at 6:55 AM for work and I have a whole hour of Saved by the Bell to get ready for work with...so good!

Pretty much everything I've said to night has ended with "!!!"...So okay, what if every sentence instead of ending with a symbol for punctuation ended with a word to represent it instead question mark That would be so freaking weird comma and think how funny it would sound if we said the whole word too exclamation point Although I guess if that's the way the English language worked it would be comma well normal period

HAHA exclamation point.

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Today & "Tomorrow"... [25 Jun 2007|06:43pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

First day of work was breezy being I didn't actually do a whole lot, just watched, buuuttt I have a lot to learn in a kind of short time, which I am used to. I'm even learning to do some of the dental technician procedures (btw that's where I'm working now if you were wondering, in a private dental lab next to my house). This place is way more chill than Nordstrom; cell phones, eating at my desk and internet is actually OK, and everyone is Korean (cuuuttee!).

I have been thinking a lot lately, as I've had quite a bit of time to myself, and some alone time, and I have had a lot of hurt and deep pain inside of me that has really surfaced recently, which I guess is where some anger and resentment initially may come from. But my whole life is suddenly different now in a few ways and I can't help but wince at the thought of it sometimes, because change is so incredibly hard, and at times can be quite painful, but at the end of it all, this means my life's options are open and I am capable of what ever I choose. So in this respect I birth a new kind of hope, and not hopelessness. Or- of course, I may just be delusional..

I don't know. But I'm feeling good today despite the rest.

P.S.- my next BIG splurge will be this (because I like to tell myself I "deserve" it....ha...yeaahh:



Edit @ 9:07 pm - over.and.out (> -,-)> ... <(-.- <)

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[25 Jun 2007|06:51am]
[ mood | awake ]

Wow...I'm awake for my first day of a new job. Another chance at starting something over.....and.....I really don't remember falling asleep last night, I hope I'm really as awake as I feel right now.

Wish me luck!

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[24 Jun 2007|01:47pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Look what I just won for only $4.25 on eBay, it is in excelent working condition too. ^_^

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[21 Jun 2007|08:51pm]
[ mood | devistated ]


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I was just reminded... [20 Jun 2007|12:52am]
[ mood | curious ]

Okay ladies....I just switched birth control pills, I'm now trying out YAZ...I was previously on Lutera. Anyhow, I am curious if any of you ladies have tried or are currently using YAZ and how you like it? Obviously all of our bodies are different, but I was just curious, so testimonials anyone? =o)

I also passed out at the clinic after my pelvic exam today. My blood sugar was very low and I blacked out in the room, the doctor came back and made me drink a glucose drink that they make pregnant women drink to check for diabetes. It was really sugary fruit punch, but it did the trick, my sweats, dizziness and heat flash went away and I was able to drive home. It was really weird, at least I was already at a doctor though.

I'm starting a journal of sketches and small cute drawings to represent my days, instead of keeping a written journal, because I get sick of writing, I thought I could express myself in small graphics instead, I just started it tonight.

Job interview tomorrow morning, so I better get to sleep, but yes ladies, if you have info on YAZ, let me know, and thanks!


P.S.- Ladies, this community is great if you have any concerns! vaginapagina

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[19 Jun 2007|10:39pm]
I'm sorry again guys hahaha

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Old news, I know... Equus [19 Jun 2007|10:35am]
[ mood | full ]

From Harry Potter to this...


and courtesy of tweege, the full frontal baby!Collapse )
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Harry Potter [18 Jun 2007|04:58am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

I thought I'd only been reading for an hour and a half, but when I finished HP 2 just now and closed the book, I realized I had been reading since half before 1 AM...meaning I had just been reading for the past 5 hours straight. And I just now realized I'm tired, now that I finally lay down and call to say goodnight to Elliott.

Best feeling ever...getting so caught up in a book that you lose all sense of time. HP 3 tomorrow!

Do I say goodnight now, or goodmorning?

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TRANSFORMERS!!!! [17 Jun 2007|11:54pm]
[ mood | excited ]

I'm completely ready for this movie to BLOW MY MIND on July 4th, are you?

Transformers the movie
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Boredom rules! [17 Jun 2007|11:08pm]
[ mood | chillin ]


I'm trying to get all of my Livejournal friends plotted on a map!

PLEASE FOLLOW THIS LINK to my profile page...

...and scroll down just under my info to type in your LJ name and plot yourself on my map!

It's pretty sweet man, yeah!



[16 Jun 2007|08:42pm]
Can we
can we kill each other quickly
quick enough so i won't feel it
a shot of strobe light anesthia
we’ll all be fine
as I’m beginning to feel cold
my hands are shaking from fear
white from clutching my pride
red from cutting you
and blue from telling lies
'cause i’m sick of the stabbing
i’m sick of the breaking
i’m sick of the bleeding until we fall down
sick of this circle of death that we dance through
again and again, just lay me in the ground
let's fall asleep together
hold me darling 'cause I’m scared
and I can't do this alone
but i need
your heartbeat
to own me
your cold lips to breathe
a promise that, tomorrow
we'll wake up somewhere new
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Hey LJ friends! [15 Jun 2007|12:26pm]
[ mood | curious ]

This will be fun, check it out!

* Ask me to take a picture of any aspect of my life that you're interested in/curious about - it can be anything from the house I live in to my favorite shoes. Leave your choice(s) here as a comment, and I will reciprocate by taking the pictures and posting them in an entry as a reply to your request. That way you get to know a little bit about my life.

Have fun guys!

(stole this from sadeydarling)

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crappy cell phone pics [13 Jun 2007|06:21pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Not much to say...

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